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I had to get away from my past and start anew.

So much bull-shit. My family seems to be tearing apart and I might have to move. My mom's tired of the shit, and there's no doubt in my mind that she wouldn't quit her job and just walk out of this bitch. Already says that she has a piece of property ready for her. I wouldn't mind moving...I welcome change...I just wouldn't have my little spot in the woods to get high anymore. I never thought this would happen to my family...not to say we're the "all american" family, cause we're clearly not. But with given circumstances, we can't afford to be split up. There's a whole lot more to the story that has built up over the years, but I won't go into it.
If only things could be the way they were...

Just got back from South Carolina yesterday... it was the best of times, it was the worst of times... and I'm smoking like a chimney, so can I play with your sword?

YO HOMIES ITS LIL' JON AND THA EAST SIDE BOIZ!!!
YYYEEEEAAAAHHHHUUUUHHHH!!!! OOOOKKKAAAYYY!!!!! WAAAAT?????

hahaha just a lil humor before i dunno what.


<3 HIPPIE LOVE

~ Slacker Jesus

hello all. dammit i just burned my waffles. crap. ok bye.

ROCKERS AGAINST DRUGS SUCK

"The musicians today who don't do drugs and in fact speak out against drugs... boy do they suck. Suck.. ballless, soulless, spiritless, corprate little bitches; suckers of satan's cock, each and every one of them!" I couldn't agree more.

ODD BELIEFS

"A lot of Christians wear crosses around their necks. Do you think when Jesus comes back he wants to see a bunch of people wearing crosses around their necks? That's kinda like going up to Jackie Onassis wearing a rifle pendant. Just thinking of John, Jackie. Just thinking of John."



Neutral:
Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the
world in a negative or positive way and you'll
never judge or assume a situation- you just
look at the facts. People like you are peaceful
and accepting.



What color do you see the world in?
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So today was the last fuckin day of hell, so to speak. My last remaining hours of school was spent playing guitar and sittin in the school lobby eating pot leaves...oh yeah! I'm really going to miss everyone but i'm ready to push all the bullshit from this year behind me. Lead a more peaceful life maybe? My life has like done a fuckin 360, man...im lovin it. But no matter how good it gets im not going to take it for granted. Anywhoo, i'm lookin forward to summer full of work and a lot of hippie lovin'.


Imagine

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Sometimes i think of starting over.
Giving up everyting i have.
To take on a new persona.
And travel down a different path.
'Cause the one i'm on now is regressing.
And i'm finding this just too damn depressing.
I find myself within
A fork in the road.
I feel like going back,
and taking on a lighter load.

Hi. Hey. Hello. Damn im free at last, FREE AT LAST. oh man, im gonna party like it's 4:20. never thought id ever be this happy again. oh the times, they change.


I Wanna Be Sedated

Twenty-twenty-twenty four hours to go
I wanna be sedated
Nothing to do
Nowhere to go
I Wanna be sedated
Just get me to the airport
And put me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry before I go insane
I can't control my fingers
I can't control my brain
Oh no oh no
Just put me in a wheelchair
And get me to the show
Hurry hurry hurry before I go loco
I can't control my fingers
I can't control my toes
Oh no oh no
-the Ramones

check this out you guys: http://www.livejournal.com/community/pot_heads/3337950.html

BLUE


??Which colour of Death is yours??
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**I'm Wrong But You Ain't Right**

Breakin' the silence is the hardest thing in life
Knowing that your wrong
Feelin' like you cant go on
I've been a victim so many times
But I'm man enough to know when I'm wrong

*shotgun cocking*

With the fresh cut mullets back row in sight
Pass the packed bowl and I'ma rock all night
Up tight right wingers tryin' say i'm what
I'm a flight bound singer not giving a fuck
Hard luck I'm the devil with the grace of god
On the level of Oz and it makes you nod
With the body of a sinner, mind of a saint
I'm everything you love, everything you hate
Hit a lot of curves, hard roads and hills
Got nerves of steel and watch time stand still
It took too long but I stood my height
You could say i'm wrong but you aint right

You aint righhhhht

You can save the environment with all your wind
But can you save your children from a world of bullshit
You look at me with a loss for love
But if you took me out would your kids still do drugs
You wanna point your finger at the unclear
You wanna point your finger at the unclear
You wanna point your finger at the unclear
You outta point your finger in the mirror
You wanna trip, quit cause I'ma keep rippin'
And you can bitch but the strippers gonna keep strippin'
I'm singin' songs in the key of life
and you can say I'm wrong but you aint right


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-Dark and Grey-*

Fuck off

Unlike me, you're gonna run away
Unlike me, you'll see another day
Run like me, out on the highway
I will ride so far
I'll probably never make it there

I never went to college, I ain't got no skills
I got hair to my shoulders and a bottle of pills
I got bills stacked up like a turkey club
I blew my last dime drinkin at the local pub

I am not sunshine
I am dark and grey
For this life of sins
I live, each day I pay
I am not Jesus
But I died in vain
Only to relive each day I'll pay

Unlike me, you're gonna run away
Unlike me, you'll see another day
Run like me, out on the highway
I will ride so far
I'll probably never make it there

I never felt at home, although I grew up loved
I got a junkies mind in a ramblin man's blood
Got a flood full of thoughts that's caught in a dam
Somedays I'm gone, but that's where I am
I'm fit to slip another rippin rhyme
I'm so ahead of the game, I feel left behind
Another dime to boost, I got boots of lead
Hope I live to see this virus spread

I am not sunshine
I am dark and grey
For this life of sins I live
Each day I pay
I am not Jesus
But I died in vain
Only to relive each day I pay

Unlike me, you're gonna run away
Unlike me, you'll see another day
Run like me, out on the highway
I will ride so far
I'll probably never make it there

Damn where should I start? this week has been hell. gee i didn't know my mind was so sexually appealing. so many people like to fuck with it. and when i say fuck it, i mean they like to fuck it long and hard. shit. they just fucked me up good. i look back at the last two entries and damn, i cant believe i felt that strong. i reached out and grabbed hold of that hand i spoke of, only to let go again. when i thought i wanted nothing more to do with the straight path that i was on, i find myself longing for the ride again. but since i've thrown away the map, i don't think i'll ever travel down it again.


Well on a much much more lighter note iv'e accepted the position of being a drummer...still would be nice to find a bass player, but no worries. maybe my life's going to turn around. hey who knows...

until we meet again....

**this song pretty much explains the aftermath of my decision from the last entry**

Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took him away from me.
he's gone to heaven so I've got to be good ,
So I can see my baby when I leave this world .
We were out on a date in my daddy's car,
We hadn't driven very far.
There in the road straight ahead ,
A car was stalled , the engine was dead .
I couldn't stop , so I swerved to the right ,
I'll never forget the sound that night .
The screaming tires , the busting glass ,
The painful scream that I heard last .
*
When I woke up, the rain was pouring down ,
There were people standing all around .
Something warm flowing through my eyes ,
But somehow I found my baby that night .
I lifted his head , he looked at me and said ;
"Hold me darling just a little while ."
I held him close I kissed him - our last kiss ,
I found the love that I knew I had missed .
Well now he's gone even though I hold him tight ,
I lost my love , my life that night .

i think im going to start anew. i have no idea what im talking about. i really dont care either. i dont care how this sounds,how this may look, but im just going to say what i feel, the way i feel it...only problem is, i dont know how or what that is. but i dont think ill have to worry about that for long though. it's all gonna come together and fall into place. no more worries, no more pain. i will soon free myself from the chains of the false happiness i have dwelled into for the past while. but i do say, it was a wild ride and i truly enjoyed it...but let's move on shall we. You're no good for me and i know i return the favor. i can tell this is true by the way i've been screwed over. but of course, "i expected no less."

So, this has now led me to a fork in the road. there is no left hand path here, odd as it may sound. two choices...keep going straight ahead, down the same path ive been going since last year or reach unto the hand to my right; the hand that so desperately needs me as much as i need it. and yes as each passing minute has greeted me for the past thirty hours ,i imagine, i inch closer and closer to my final decision. its really not that hard of a choice. i've made it up in my mind long before i even had to, but its just the underlying consequences that seem to plague me in my dreams.

tossing and turning in my sleep while she stabs her way inside of me...shes angered by my hesitation to make the decision. but ive walked to the edge and im done looking back. i know what im going to do. i dont care what he thinks, because as far as im concerned...he doesn't. i hope im making her proud. now that shes been inside of me, im left with a new found power.
and...this further proves my theory that two negatives make a positive. im still chained. but he says im strong enough to break free. i hope he's right.

until we meet again....

i said it once, and ill say it again....

"I need you like I need a hole in my head
I need someone to steal my money and wish I were dead
I need someone to always put me down
And everywhere I go he wants to hang around"


umm...yeah



hey guess what...i found a new smoking buddie. guess who it is...you'll never guess....its my bus driver. no bullshit in this whatsoever. k so im like the last one off, so he talks to alot and i know hes got my back. but out of nowhere hes all like "do you smoke elly?" i just look up at him guiltily. he tried to assure me he wouldnt tell anyone. i just smiled, an' he goes "you do dont you. i knew it. i could just tell. the people you hang with....youre kind of a nervous person...dont you think that has some kind of effect on your health and makes you feel bad like you do?" im all like" nah, it makes me feel better." then he goes on about how they should make an area for us to smoke at school, so dipshits will stop messing up the bathrooms when they smoke. then we talked about the scorekeeper at our school who tried to flush her roach down but got caught cuz the recipt that she rolled had her name on it....yeah real smooth. if your gonna take part in any kind of visceral experience, be smart about it.

and when i got home i smoked some 'new testament' with my lil secret rolled in it. imma pioneer in this revolution!

gee, i never thought id be like those burnouts who denies themselves of drug addiction. heh kinda funny

shit hole piss fuck up tha ass

awww......fuckin shit. i need to start goin back to school. or maybe ill just quit. i dont see why bother anymore. nah i wont quit. quitting is for pansies...to quote a now rather abused cliche. oh yeah, all you fuckin dipshit assholes that have screwed me over can fuckin deep throat my non-existant dick. take it up the ass too. FUCK YOU. i dont know what the hell is goin on with me but im sure it'll all be better in the morning ;-) yeah right, fuckin bullshit...

*later slapKnuts***

**I AM ONLY ONE FUCKER, GOT IT BITCH?

A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle...

Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
Guy: No, this is fun.
Girl: No it's not. Please, it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
:::Girl hugs him:::
Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? Its bugging me.

(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die. If there is anyone in life you love this much, please repost this.

¤ ¤ ¤ December 21 ¤ ¤ ¤

No this pain's not false. Why can't you see, why can't you believe, why can't you understand, why can't you care? But NO, just deny that your child has a problem. i really do appreciate all that you have done. i want to give back- even the shirt on my back. Why must you bring back my past and the shit i regret, and throw it all in my face again? i hate it. i hate me. Yeah, there's no school today, tomorrow, or the next day. So basically, it seems as if i've just been relocated from one prison to another. i hate it here. Everytime i come home my happiness fades away. Why must you use that bull-shit sarcasm?? That's YOUR pussy way out of things. Sitting on your bed, you won't let me cry, you forbid me to bleed...so what's left for me to release? i was fine untill now. you say i'm not strong, well i'm still here arent i? Telling me you won't be home for Christmas, well fuck that i won't be home for Christmas. NO NO NO i won't. i used to love this time of year, but now i hate it. someone close to me always dies and leaves me here. Everything's all overrated...to the point where the things that meant the most, mean nothing. You say i need a beating. Well go ahead, i want to feel it.